Assalamualaikum (May peace be upon you). I hope that everyone is well in shaa Allah (God willing). I just thought I would do a bit of an update here on the blog to fill everyone in what has been going on. Well I won't go into full details but will say enough.

I have been dealing with a lot lately. Whether it be emotional, spiritual, and well physical as well. I have stepped away from my faith for a while because I was going through some things. I kept up with it to some extent but I wasn't where I wanted to be or where I should be. Instead of putting my trust in Allah swt, I just gave up. I know that he will not put anything upon me that I can't handle. I have been doing a lot of (extra) praying, reading the Qu'ran, and obtaining a lot of knowledge from Qu'ran Weekly, and Bayyinah TV over on YouTube. The things that I have been reading has reflected my life. Coincidence? I think not. I took it as a sign, that to put my trust and faith back into Allah (swt) because he knows what I'm facing, and he will guide me to where I need to be.

Those that follow me on my personal Facebook page, know that I've somewhat been talking about moving. I try not to discuss it too much due to personal reasons. What I mean by that is where I plan on moving to, why I'm moving, and when. I do what I can to keep a lot of things to a minimal when it comes to posting things. Yes I have my blog, YouTube and other social media sites, but those are more for business purposes.  Something happened not long ago and it's really taken a toll on not only myself but on my son as well. I will just leave it at that. I've contacted a few people that are doing what they can to help me out and you know who you are, so thanks ladies.

With everything that has been going on, has done nothing but drained me. I'm so worn out and tired. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone. No one should have to stress about anything in their life, but sadly that is just one of the natural form of emotions that is beyond our control. At least that is what I think anyway. I have always been the first one to tell someone to never give up, and yet that is the first thing that I do. I will look at this as a learning experience and pray that I make better choices in my life to not allow myself to be put in situations such as this again.

As far as school goes, I'm still in school, for now. I'm going to keep going in shaa Allah. That is one thing I love about taking online courses, because I can take it with me where ever I go. School is only thing that I have right now that keeps me going. Well beside my Allah, and my son of course. I never had the opportunity to attend college right after high school. Then by the time I was ready, I thought I was too old. Even now I often second guess myself when it comes to education because I struggle so much with learning comprehension. I have my entire life. It's no walk in the park, I can tell you that for sure.  I am trying my best to not let what is going on personally to deter me from finishing this.

Because of what is going on and until I get it taken care of, I will not be posting anymore videos. This is one of the reason's on why I haven't been posting much and keeping a schedule to begin with, it's because of dealing with a past personal problem. I will do what I can though. No promises.

I also would like to thank everyone for your understanding of all this and the few for your support. Masha'Allah I love you all so much.